Self leading during the month of December is hard! With the month filled with various seasonal gatherings and with extra time needing to be put toward Christmas Eve services -- the seemingly non-urgent gets pushed out of my schedule -- maybe you can relate.
The effects of my lagging in this discipline is having its effects. Like the feeling you have when you have not physically exercised for a while, my mind and thinking have felt sluggish and lazy of late and if there is such thing as your brain feeling fat -- that is how I have felt in some respects. One example of my sluggishness is that a book that would normally takes me a week to read has taken me almost a month to complete.
Therefore over the past few days I have made a commitment to self-lead and given time to it no matter how late it may be. All ready I am feeling better and benefiting from pressing through.
I have been reading Walking in Your Own Shoes by Robert A. Schuller and here is great thought from this book that has given me some intellectual stimulation and encouragement.
"Don't mistake motion for progress and growth in your life. Be patient, be hungry, establish your priorities, and don't be afraid to cut your losses. The most mature people you know have had to do all four -- and so will you." p. 149